Impossible

Although usually I just write poems. I was listening to this song on the way home and I always tend to shed a tear while listening. I always think to myself why, is it that you still have the power to break me a little bit more. It's not like anything is the same anymore, to an extent we've both moved on. I stopped waiting around for to get over wanting to be with many instead of just me. It's obvious to everyone I guess that our chemistry was never balanced enough to work out. But I guess the reason why I bring this song up is when she sings "Tell them I was happy..." thats the part that always gets to me. You know when your so into something and all of a sudden it disappears you think why did that happiness get robbed from me? And before I met him I knew not to let my heart be so unprotected, I didn't really believe in love even though ppl thought my parents showed it to me daily. They didn't see the relationship I did behind the close doors of our house. It's a bummer to an extent that you were so strong to move on with more of you intact than i have of me. I'm a new me in the makings. A little of who I use to be still fights to be the whole me but I cant be that girl anymore that tends to let boys put her in a trance and make her forget who she is. I'm a strong girl. Your the only exception that it's okay that I let you walk all over me, I gave all of me to you when you were only giving me parts of you and other parts to other people. But after him I told myself never to fall in love again and i haven't my heart continued to try to grab on to anyone who'd give me the time and day but I'm more than just that. And it's time for me to move on even if it's with my open scars. :)