I've never been in love with anyone but you

My heart seems to beat faster only in your presence

Although we sit afar and our lips don't touch

My heart is still in your possession

And my memories are stuck to those we made

Everyday I pray for you and me to become an us

Because every moment with you is a moment I wish never ends

A moment that could last us a lifetime 

Because forever you'll hold my heart.

For the longest time I believed these words in the poem, that you were the one that helped me breath and the one that I needed in order to go on. Now I post this poem and realize that baby your my past, one that yes I fell in love with but I'm done holding on to the little bit of string your throwing down at me. My love will be accepted open handily with someone else. We did end and I'm done holding on to those memories.

Meaning of the tatts

Scorpion- It tells you that I can be dangerous when I want to be, I can sneak up on you. Now my scorpion has been told to have some defaults but life isn't perfect especially mine. I really like my tattoo because it's me, behind the ear because I long to catch someone who wants to find the inner makings of my mind. It's simple and to the point because I can be the most simplest person one can meet, I'm not waiting around for the fairy tale instead I'm waiting for reality. But more importantly it lets you know my personality of being a scorpion.

Skull wit bow- I have a thing for skulls and rock. I think that getting my tattoo on my foot of my skull it brings forth the other side of me. The one that loves rocking out and having it on my foot just brings forth the idea of tapping my foot to good music. Yet the skull is designed with heart eyes to show that I am looking for a love but not really looking for the traditional love story.

Irie Star- I want it on my wrist so I can remind myself of the things that high school brought forth to me. Many friendships but also some pain that I thought I wouldn't get through and instead of having just faint scars on my wrist i place a star. Red to remind me of a fierce friend I had that showed me how to feel, green to bring forth my loving friend that showed me how to be unique and out there and yellow because I'm a mellow person and sometimes during party times you need to remember that.

A recent tatt that I just got the idea for was getting little figures on my fingers.

Hugging fingers- Shows that I don't need anyone but myself to get through life. Having the hugging fingers reminds me that as long as I have myself i can get through anything that life throws at me. And not man or other person can confort me like myself.

As life goes on my heart tends to get more fragile each time,
The knives you stabbed in my back have finally numbed away,
I've become immune to al your lies
Nothing can change the way I feel for you
The damage has been done and I'm moving on
Your words are just a wast of space
They mean nothing anymore
The friendship card was always played
but the player card is the one you were dealing
Over and over again I fell for the games
The game of your meaningless lies.