Questions for an exlover.

Will you ever understand?

I can tell you a million and one times everything thats right

but it's the billion other times you do the wrong things.

How to love another more than yourself
It's one thing to be conceited but you go way beyond that title.
Is it that hard for you to want just me to be with just me
Am i really that pathetic that I can't please your every need
Who is going to be there for you when you need a lending hand
A million times it's been me but now it's time I let go.
You don't love me the way i love you
Is it easy for you to walk away from it all
Because It's getting easier for me to let you go
I'm tired of your games
You'll never understand till it's too late.

Impossible

Although usually I just write poems. I was listening to this song on the way home and I always tend to shed a tear while listening. I always think to myself why, is it that you still have the power to break me a little bit more. It's not like anything is the same anymore, to an extent we've both moved on. I stopped waiting around for to get over wanting to be with many instead of just me. It's obvious to everyone I guess that our chemistry was never balanced enough to work out. But I guess the reason why I bring this song up is when she sings "Tell them I was happy..." thats the part that always gets to me. You know when your so into something and all of a sudden it disappears you think why did that happiness get robbed from me? And before I met him I knew not to let my heart be so unprotected, I didn't really believe in love even though ppl thought my parents showed it to me daily. They didn't see the relationship I did behind the close doors of our house. It's a bummer to an extent that you were so strong to move on with more of you intact than i have of me. I'm a new me in the makings. A little of who I use to be still fights to be the whole me but I cant be that girl anymore that tends to let boys put her in a trance and make her forget who she is. I'm a strong girl. Your the only exception that it's okay that I let you walk all over me, I gave all of me to you when you were only giving me parts of you and other parts to other people. But after him I told myself never to fall in love again and i haven't my heart continued to try to grab on to anyone who'd give me the time and day but I'm more than just that. And it's time for me to move on even if it's with my open scars. :)

My lost angel.

No matter the time we've been apart
I still feel your presence in my heart
You made me the person I am today
Without knowing you help me live everyday
Memories of the laughs we had
Never understood what happened
Why you left me behind to try to survive
My heart breaks without your presence in it.
I'm not strong enough to visit you without crying.
I pray everyday that my day to be with you comes fast.
Living without you by my side is harder than it seems
I know you told us not to cry over your  departure
But don't judge me because I can't handle you gone
No one can replace you
No one even comes close to it.
I promise you'll always be in my thoughts
And i promise to live for you everyday.
I love you.

RIP. David Sean Uribe
My beloved cousin lost too sudden.
I will always miss you.
and love you!

You've been there all along.

How do I always end up with you

After all the time you said you'd walk away

You still stuck around

Maybe because you get what you want

But then again we both do

Can you be the one that my heart needs

The one who says can treat me right

We've never gotten that far

But we've been close for years

And you still get my heart racing

When I sneak out of the house to meet you

Meeting me in your drive way in your PJ's

Staying up talking about our days

Realizing we let too much time pass

Can we be more than what we are?

We've always had our set roles

But turning it into a relationship that's a leap

For both of us

You've alway been there to cheer me up

Lettin me cry on your shoulder when my heart was breaking

Admiring me from afar 

Waiting for your turn yet we had that chance

Can it be time for the next step?

Pebble for grabs

You were my world 

You were my everything 

But I'm so over being in the background hoping you notice me

Baby I love you but I can't do this much longer

I don't have the same strength you do

To keep my heart from taking over

Maybe you've moved on

And all the hope for us is over

But to me I see you still love me

I want to believe that you needed her just to get it out of your system

So that we can be even and get back into rhythm

I can't be your rock

If your only going to be kicking me around

I want to be that pebble you pick up to admire

The one you stick in your pocket

And never want to let go

But my patience is cutting short

And I'm starting to loose my cool

Everything I do is think of moving on

I want to be someone's pebble 

So drop me and walk away

If you've stop admiring my beauty

Let someone else pick me up 

And put me in their pocket

Sweet and Sour

Sometimes I'm very sweet
And I'll cuddle with you and kiss you
But then there are times where I can be sour
Only because I fall back into reality
I want to freeze my world of sweetness
Because there you'd still love me
And memories wouldn't haunt me
The breaking would stop of my heart
I'd hold your hand as we drive away in the sunset
Never looking back to what we went through
Giving you sweet little kisses
And knowing things were just right
I'd wish away doubts that always bring that sourness
The world where I know this only works out here and now
Nothing else matters now
But once you walk out the door it's all over
And you go back to living without me.
So i put this wall so that it hurts less this time.