Missing Paradise

Paradise was a blast.

But now i'm back home 

There is more problems stirring up than before I left.

I need a hug.

I need a new heart.

Mines torn between emotions.

Stop allowing me onto the roller coster

Wish they were emotions for you

Cept they are just my moods

Ship me back to paradise

Leave me there to change

I promise sooner or later I'll learn how to laugh

How to smile and hide all my pain

But for now let me be

Let me be a ticking bomb

Watch your distance I know your scared

But I can't control it.

So i need to go back to paradise.

Her story

Look into her eyes

And tell me what you see

Do they show you the same story they tell me?

Can you see how in love she is

With the man who uses her

Nothing can separate her

From all the pain he causes

Lies she knew not to believe but ended up accepting

How do you get her off this dead ended road

When she is filled with the hope that he may love her

Do you let her continue on that road

The road that will always end with a cliff of disappointment
Or do you pull her in
And tell her your the one who can save her

Packing

Feels like I'm packing away the pain of living a lie

All the things I do to be happy tend to backfire as I pack

Maybe running isn't the answer but it feels so good

Going to that special place where my worries don't exist

Its like popping a pill and feeling the ecstasy at command

No one can stop it

My heart beating uncontrollable

My stomach flipping in excitement

The touch I use to know so orgasmic brings me to the edge

But what happens when all that ends?

Do I come back to this world

Where I go day by day hoping that I can fake a smile?

Just to make you think everything is okay

These lies can't go on

But where do we go when they do

To a world of unicorns and cotton candy clouds

No we go a world we call reality.

Harsh but real

And I'm stuck trying satisfy people

But when will you go out of your way for me

When I'm holding on to life by a thread

Is that when they'll make an effort?

Karma can't save you so why should I try to have good karma.

I'm packing and I'm leaving it all behind

But of course your coming with me.

Love with boundaries.

Part without my heart and let it heal

You've broken it too many times before

You've let me believe you'd hold it again

Never letting it go

Maybe it worked a million times before

But a million and one ends tonight

I love you but thats not enough

So saying good-bye seems right

I'll always love you thats a given

But sometimes you just got to let go

Never forgetting you were my first love

So good-bye to days and nights that ended in passion

Welcome only friend time

But the kisses let me never forget them

By kissing me one last time

And I'll pack away the memories

Lock them away for good

To remind me of the fish's heart that got way

And left his friendship instead to stay